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How my Boyfriend Changed an Insecure Perfectionist — 7 Lessons He Unintentionally Taught Me

I was an easily offended perfectionist.

Margarette Mathias
8 min readOct 3, 2020
Photo by Fábio Alves on Unsplash

Have you met a person who acts perfect and all-knowing–but got owned in an embarrassing situation. He tried to save face, however, his comeback sounded desperate and awkward.

For years, I was that person.

People nowadays are hamming on being cool and aggressive. While they wander with a high sense of pride, vulnerability still finds a room in them.

I’ve always seen myself as a faultless independent woman, but in reality, I was just as fragile as glass.

I was at the peak of my perfectly insecure lifestyle during my high school –intelligent, thoughtful, but perfectionist, a relaxed student but a GC in the shadows. People see no faults in me –or is it just how I imagine it?

I always thought I was a talented and smart kid, but insecurities were the downfall of my progress. I chose to keep it low, dodge criticisms, and neglect progressive learning. I’m sensitive as hell that I’d never take action unless it’s a sure win.

Did you ever wear awkward attire and hope no one notices how horrible it is? Sounds impossible, but you kept wishing no one comments on it. Claiming perfection…

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Margarette Mathias
Margarette Mathias

Written by Margarette Mathias

A daydreamer who loves cats, coffee, and life talks. Support me and my works at ko-fi.com/margarettemathias

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